It’s nuts, but I am 60 years old. ME….60 years old. I just can’t seem to get my mind around it…60??? When did this happen? and it’s really been a ball.
You See, I met this Guy, who after just moments I knew was going to be in my life forever.And then, he gave me all this…. All these wonderful boys, men and girls. OH God, thank you, I could not be any happier, any luckier, or any prouder.AND the truth ! ! ! I’m typing this January 14 because RIGHT NOW, (the 18th) I am laying on a beach and will be for the NEXT FEW DAYS ! !
I didn’t get out this week to shoot any new pictures….these are my attempt at a photo competition???? and I mean I TRY ! ! This first one I LOVE, but I placed it in the documentary category, and it’s not a documentary photo??? After 3 emails and 2 phone calls, I knew…..it was not going to get even looked at. My Fault…. I titled it “A bit of Her Life” maybe they knew it was my life?
I have been playing with black and white. I love adding a bit of color too. That’s why the top one was NOT a documentary photo, but creative??
Thank you for asking, my Mom is in a Skilled Nursing Center and settling in….Well? She can walk a bit with a walker, uses a wheelchair most of the time and since the surgery she lost all her bathroom abilities. Which I think is pretty common, from the talk around the lunch table with her. She is in a wonderful place, LOVES playing bingo, going to drum line, and she has found the spa ! She is not far from me, which is good too.
Great Grandma’s Quilt for my Mom
LESSONS Learned
ALWAYS tell the TRUTH: health issues suck, I know you/they are sick and no one wants to be sick, but talk about it, get it figured out, fixed and move on.
LAUGH, out loud and strong: Yes, it’s all serious, but we all know going into live, we are going to die in the long run. LAUGH
ASK the VERY hard questions, of yourself, of others, of services. EVERY thing you can think of, ask the questions.
FIND someone who you can say WHAT ever you need to say and will not judge you. Who will listen, and let you talk.
I have heard SO much the past months about empathy, and I think sometimes I just don’t have ANY ! Or maybe I just can’t have any NOW !
Empathy is the capacity to understand or feel what another person is experiencing from within the other being’s frame of reference, i.e., the capacity to place oneself in another’s position.
I do get it….but, moving through survival mode. My way is, look, learn and solve the problem. What is needed and what HAS to be done. I can’t seem to find empathy at those moments, but isn’t that empathy too, getting it done?
My 2017 had higher than usual highs and some really low, lows. In late August my life became overwhelming and not mine, then in early December I found this,or it found me. PRAYER OF RELEASE
Heavenly Father, I release to You the burdens that I have been carrying, burdens that You never intended for me to carry. I cast all my cares upon You–all my worries, all my fears. You have told me to not be anxious about anything, but rather to bring everything to You in Prayer with Thankfulness.
Father, calm my restless spirit, quiet my anxious heart, still my troubling thoughts with the assurance that You are in control. I let go of my grip upon the things I have been hanging onto, with opened hands I come to You. I release to Your will all that I am trying to manipulate: I release to Your authority all that I am trying to control: I release to Your timing all that I have been striving to make happen.
I have always been the fixer, the one doing all the tap dancing to make everyone happy or everything right, the release to God has moved me forward, to except the good or bad and release it to the universe. I can fix nothing. I can ask, receive and release. My silent meditation. Release and Thank You
My Past Weeks Photo’s by Beth Ann. I have been wanting to do this for a bit and with things a bit calmer, I am going to try. What it really does is get me OUT and taking pictures.
We live in a fantasy area here in Sarasota, Florida, so many things to see and do. We always make it to the Ringling before most holiday’s. I call it a “vacation day”. I took 417 pictures on this day. I found I was a bit involved with the lighting??? I try very hard to just take pictures, not over think anything like portions of thirds, colors, just shoot what my eyes see at the time.
I have always loved old thing and this is one of my favorite houses to visit. I hope that some day they will open it up to special tours and let me take my camera behind the red ropes….BUT until that time, I just keep taking pictures.
With everything being so crazy here for months….I am just getting myself back. My Mom is in a very good living place and we are getting a new normal worked out.
I haven’t done anything I have wanted to do for months, tonight I did, pulled out my photo’s and just played on Photoshop. I have always had anxiety and it has been on over drive. So, it’s huge for me to just be and be happy doing what “I” like.
Nice to see you, is from a boat ride and we walked the beach in Sarasota Bay.
Scary Beauty The Jelly fish is from Mote Marine, and of course my flowers, from ??? I even took a bit of time and entered a digital photo contest, I didn’t include them here but will after judging.
Nice to See You by Beth StrubScary Beautiful by Beth Ann Strubin the beginning by Beth Ann StrubThe Back of Beauty by Beth Strub
One last day of this table, but I love it. I have had a couple questions, the table is all two by fours and a 3/4 inch plywood top. Husband and I moved through the pile of both the two by fours (need to be straight) and plywood(perfect grain pattern)
They (workers) will look at you, watch and NEVER help. AND I am VERY fine with that. Better to leave me ALONE. We always put everything back on the racks. The cost for both the plaid walls and table just about 300.
This table is 77 inches long, 36 inches wide and 32 inches high ! It’s a beast. I LOVE IT and My Sewing room is DONE???
It has been a VERY long bit. I am trying to be back, my Mom is in her ninth week of rehab. and I’m just about….done. I will share more when it’s possible and when I have the were about me to do it.
Husband said last Friday night, “Grab your camera and let’s go see the Clydesdales” We drove down, pulled in, parked in the first row, walked around the corner AND
Anticipation of the Budweiser Clydesdales, photo by Beth Ann Strub
I truly thought my heart was going to stop !
He smiled at Me, photo by Beth Ann Strub of the Budweiser Clydesdales
I hadn’t felt well for days. Thank you Budweiser Clydesdales, “That’s Second to None.”
